Endless

by Holding Patterns

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credits

released May 17, 2019

Produced by Holding Patterns and Andy Hawkins
Recorded and mixed by Andy Hawkwins
at The Nave, Leeds, UK in May & June of 2018
Studio assistant: Jay Russell
Mastered by Dave Draper

Tracks 1, 6 & 9 recorded and mixed by Jim Cork
Drums on 9 recorded by Jay Dean and Jim Cork
at Dubrek Studios, Derby, UK in February of 2017

‘Centered At Zero’ contains extracts from the poem
‘I Saw No Way—The Heavens Were Stitched’ by Emily Dickinson

Design and layout by Jim Cork
Photo by Valeria Deiana

℗© 2019 Holding Patterns

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Former members of Crash of Rhinos.
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Track Name: At Speed
Small conversation
No consideration
Just walk away without anyone asking
Just like you wanted
Put locks on doors
Don’t be ashamed of anything
I’m sure you meant it all
Because I’m still waiting
For you to show some interest in this

Motionless,
We lie there, don’t speak
Its fullness
Its fullness won’t leave

Dead furniture
With the room still spinning
Why don’t you ever smile
Would you show me how
Could you show me how
A smile gets remembered

Left behind now
Further with every step
Strangers to me

It’s hard to find the words
When they only fall on deaf ears
Is there something more
I’m dying for a difference

This nothing
We cling onto nothing
Wait in the recovery line and spring

Unheard
Unknown
Unrecognisable
Unafraid
Unaltered and unseen

So esteemed in defeat
There’s honour in holding beliefs
In ignominy
At speed
Please don’t dilute the memory

Clutching at straws
Incandescent, but flawed
Track Name: First Responder
Once so proud and tall
It’s worse not expecting falls
Don’t think of it as home
Don’t think of it as anything
When we’re just out of reach

Put out a call for your last name
But the calls keep coming back to me
Around we searched for hours
We looked for days until we dropped
Remember this
You know

Fresh set of bandages
Replacement eyes and ears
We chalked the lines
We walked them out
As birthdays came and went
Without you there
And say to yourself
"This’ll be perfect when I’m done.
If I’m ever done"

Waste an hour or two
Staring up at six of six
Brave or brazen
She was a little bit of both
A torn-up sketchbook
Of yesterday’s forgotten future
Some 50ft high heaven
A shrine to blinking lights

Put out a call for your last name
But the calls keep coming back to me

By intimate design
Far too bold to be lifeless
As they tear you down
They’ll judge on the lives you took
Not the time you saved

So hard to see this go
Struck off the map
And now we’re floating debris in the breeze
An island only

Put out a call for your last name
But the calls keep coming back to me
Track Name: Centered At Zero
I saw no way of seeing around corners
The heavens were stitched
Some dot-dash come smile
Lights surrounding hemispheres
And back it slid
And I alone

Sunrise
Pour light on this void
Sunrise
When days become diagrams
Snowfall
Roll it up and sell it on
Collecting on fractions of light

Some circular pattern repeating
In endless consent
Blue aspic set eyes
Sing a chorus of misery
And back it slid
And I alone

Just a speck on a ball
Spinning
In circular motion
Without knowledge or notion
Track Name: No Accident
Lover of the longest shot
Came swimming through the water
Pale and thin
Taker of the shortest breath
Been waiting for a while

Fearing every day that passed
Wondering if this is the night you’d be drawn in
Making the unknowing turn
Making sense of the unknown

For this to be forgotten
I’d have to be devoted to forgetting
And as the sunlight sets sights
On memories in corners
Try to fight this

Tired of the holding on
Now the current is too strong for you to swim
An overdose in the undertow

Sitting up and looking down
As your eyes reappear
Re-scan the page, a familiar shape
A tilt, a taste, elixir

This is no accident
This is the way it’s made to be
This is no great mistake
This is the way it’s made to be
Born to fight it

So as a personal favour
And where at least we’re able
Try to fight this

It was a lesson well taught
And if I was the last thought
You’re forgetting

Am I ahead of the curve?
Am I ahead of what’s making you ill?
Am I ahead of my nerves?
Am I outrunning?

For this to be forgotten
I’d have to be devoted to forgetting
And as the sunlight sets sights
On memories in corners
Try to fight this
Track Name: Dust
I’ll scan the room
You circulate
You take the lead
I’ll stand behind
Much still remains
Step and repeat
Gauge indicates that it’s early days

Born to fall behind
Does this sound familiar?

Compare and contrast
The ticket stubs you’ve thrown away
Two words from foe to foe on primetime

Was it meant to be?
The scene of all our greatest days
Or just a glance
From friend to friend in end-time?

Born to fall behind
Does this sound familiar?

I’ll do my damnedest
No respite for the amputees
What’s to say
If you can’t catch it you can’t have it

Slow to perceive
A tree grown from the smallest seed
Eclipses light
Defining darkness way beneath them

Wasting away
Like centuries that’ve gone before
You’ll disappear
Too scared to raise your voice
Incomplete
Settle for less or settle the score
Fire rages on
But it all seems so far from you

The blackest lungs
The purest heart
We’ll keep you in mind
For the fall behind

This is the time we fall for it
This is the time we fall for it again

This dust on my chest
Was once part of the earth
Now this part of the earth
Is wed to me

So much remains
So it must remain
Track Name: This Shot Will Ring
Obliged to feed the subconscious
With what you need
In the absence of ideas or concepts
Repeat:
“I’m the strongest one,
I’m the stable one”
The gentlest push through the door
Tie the hands
And shackle the feet

What seemed so important
When we were them
Scratch in spirals that line every surface
The patterns distract the pain

Mute contemporaries fear the falling
As you tear the deeds
Post industrial broke isolation
Needs belief
You’re the conscious one
You’re the able one
The eroding coastlines and shores
Make the waves abandon the seas

Sooner or later
These ties and lines
That try to connect us all
Will fail and break

Scratch in spirals that line every surface
The patterns distract the pain
No reward deemed fit for our purpose
A cold to make winter seem tame

There’s no relief for this sting
Such cruel truth to be accepting of
What a way to discover
We were playing for keeps
Same guns pointing the same way
This shot will ring

How it seemed
They couldn’t divide us all
But there we go
Blind into a fall
Take a step back

It’s how I’ll remember
This chosen way
Well, one of the ways
Track Name: House Fire
Proof read injury
Like lucid comatose
Far off hopefulness
But I will stay
For the idol
That glares from the mantle
Seized in an instant
I’m afraid it had to be this way
Conflict with no end
Prisoner with intention
No language could imitate
We are so far away from the union
And years become echoes

Post marked envelopes
Addressed to the room I’m in
Process is emptying
While you abstain
From the shoulders up
All that I have of you
No sense to the order
Is everything within a frame
Garments stitched for us, faithfully
Will cover the bruises
We’ve learned to self medicate
We are so far away from the union
And years become echoes

Nothing left to say
To anyone at all
Redistribute the pages
To everyone you know
Nearer to our ignorance
Nearer to the dust
Nearer to the stillness
Nearer to a must
No longer at ease
No longer able

All these hours
All these years
Held it down
Fixed to stay
Locked along the halls
So I can’t go
Look behind
Trails of indecision plug the gaps
But that was then
Good enough, fine for now
Try to keep it level for the crowd
And this is now
Track Name: Long Dead
Dust keeps settling
On instruments retired in empty homes
Silence deafening
Strings collecting memories on their own
Long dead live-wire
An ember in a room gone so cold
Rebuild the fire
You’re the fuel to throw the spark into
We’ll hold you up

My seatbelt snapped
My head is cracked
Floating flames of all these maps
Your brilliant eyes
The shocks and kicks
I’d do anything for and almost did

Adjusting the ground
The endless shift
The battered and bleak
The broken down
The endless hours of boarded doors
We wander around

Always the enemy
Misguided impressions
Of the loneliest thoughts
Decode the apathy
Disregard it
Discard it
Electrify us

The customary hours
With pastels, chalks and paints
And with them my friend
What got you there?
Your glasses were smashed
The table stared
And I’ve been dying to say

My seatbelt snapped
My head is cracked
Floating flames of all these maps
Your brilliant eyes
The shocks and kicks
Adjusting the ground
To endless shifts

We’ll hold you up regardless
We’ll hold you up
Track Name: Momentarily
He guaranteed
That he’d be there, be supportive
Try to be the person they both wanted
The hardest thing
Take a drink and take the silence
Try not to fall
As the vacuum starts to call

Turn on lights
At last he knew so little
Someone else must remember how it was
Nothing less than nothing
That’s what matters
Look around
This is all that he has owned

Bright visions
Came to haunt him
Of a world
That should and could have all been his
A world of intellect
And sensibility
Now lay in his mind
Forever drenched in disbelief
And laid to rest

Broke three bones of his fist against the wall
Mouth twitches into a series of new shapes
Still the same
Still the cornerstone inside
From to time to time
He wishes things would slow down

And this night you’ve thrown away
Is so cold
One more light to lead the way
In circles

In the middle of throwing down the arms
You inhaled an ending to the story
In bad taste you salivate for silence
And choke a new first line

You count the grains of sand
I’ll drive nails through my feet and my hands
You be the storyboard
I’ll be the under explored

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